Fears and Dreams

So, my sister and I were talking about dreams tonight, and the role that they play in our waking lives. Personally, I am a big believer in the importance of dreams and how they have these significant messages to them. My sister is the same way, if not more and we got into talking about our dreams. She dreams constantly, vividly and intensely. Maybe, its because of the shit she has gone through in her  life. She has always been this creative, free spirit, but after many disastrous events in her life, I think she started to become a dreamer. I guess that helps when reality really sucks. For me, I haven’t gone through too much and, I don’t really dream. It is said that a person has 4-7 dreams in one night, but I never remember a single detail. Until summer began. During the year, I’m a robot. Wake up, go to school, study, go on the internet till I’m about to fall asleep. Then do it all over. Dreams just didn’t happen for me, but now that I’m back in my home country, its crazy how well I remember my dreams. I told my sister about this one nightmare that I had a couple of days ago. I was trapped in what seemed to be my school. But at the time, I didn’t know I was trapped, but then I awoke from the trance and realized that the people around me (including myself) were brainwashed and didn’t know it. The people who were brainwashing us were among us, acting like our fellow peers. After that realization, I spent the whole dream trying to escape the building, but everyone’s mission was to stop me by either manipulating me or torturing me. It was terrifying. I became claustrophobic and extremely paranoid. I couldn’t trust anybody because I had no idea who was on my side. (No one.) Finally, the most graphic image I remember is me, running up this huge marble staircase that seemed to go on forever, with these people running after me, up the staircase. It took ages until I burst through the doors and ran outside. That’t it. That’s all I can recall, but after I told my sister about it, she was blown away how symbolic it was. Then we did some research. My favorite site for dreams is: http://www.dreammoods.com and on this site we found that “To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs indicate that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual, emotional or material journey. The dream is also analogous to material and thoughts that are coming to the surface.” This is exactly what my sister said before we even looked up my dream. I think it’s a very accurate definition because that is what I planned my summer to be about. To focus on myself and really move into the next stage in my mental, spiritual, emotional life. The brainwashers signify my life back in Atlanta. I’m cut off from anything creative, because there, there is nothing that makes me feel inspired or creative. I feel locked down and at times, claustrophobic. This summer is a much needed summer for me. I just hope I can accomplish what I want to accomplish. I can’t define it for you, but I know what it is…and I know I need it.

If any of you have these crazy symbolic dreams, I suggest you visit that site I wrote about in this entry. You’ll be surprised at how relevant some of the information you read can be! Also, any bizarre dream stories you’d like to share? We’re all crazies here.